Sho, we just watched 127 hours
in the corridor.
It was a slow movie from time to time. But in the end it made my blood sugar low and I began to coldsweat. I almost fainted there
. I think its because I knew that it was based on a true story.
So I guess the movie gets a good grade because it really moved me, even physically :p
I can't remember when last I felt like this. How my whole being just fills with happiness and joy. That just a quick glimpse leave me with a familiar tingle in my tummy. How the brain immediatly start thinking and my face turns red.
Its too early for this, way to early... But I can't help it.
Gaaah, I'm still tired and I have no motivation to read or study. My thoughts are somewhere else and all I want to do is just browse the internet and wait. Wait for this afternoon when I'm going to go to town to spend some money.
Now its almost time for lunch and I've only managed to read one chapter. Maybe I should go to school tomorrow, I think so!
Me and Jessica is going to visit Mickan in Åre March 16-20 :D To be honest, I can't wait...
Let these weeks go by fast, cause after Åre I'm going back south and I'm also going to hold Johanna for the first time :D
Oh, haven't been this tired in ages! Doing nothing and listen to John Mayer is all I have energy to do :p
Na, now I'm going to get up and make myself an avocado pear with Créme Fraiche :)
It was 18.50 when KG said we are leaving 19.15.
I hadn't eaten anything or put on make up! But I made it, we even hade to wait for another guy... After a run to the bus I was out of breath for the whole trip. We ended up in Mariehem for s prepary. We later went back to Campus and we ended up having quite a nice time at Corona... When we came back home we had syrup, cheese and pancakes, quite a goood combination ;)
I actually had a nice evening after all:D
I woke up this morning at 9, after 4 hours of sleep, stupid!!! My jaw felt all weird for some reason and my left foot is killing me. Ever since we walked to Strömpilen its been hurting :/
Going to take a shower soon and walk to Skogis with Mattias :)
The only thing that works is talking and I hope this will make wonders...
Let me just say, I love love my corridor!
Yesterday after that hectic visit at Strömpilen we ended up infront of the TV.
Vem vet mest?
It was just a perfect evening with lots of sweets, laughter and pillowfights to top it off, haha...
Back from Strömpilen. Jo, it was hectic and now I'm all tired! I didn't find any bedding but a bought a nice skirt that I will have on tomorrow. Its time for party and I'm looking forward to it. I hope I'll get some company ;)
So, we went to Systemet and after some time at Maxi we came out with atleast two big paperbags each. Luckily there is a bus from Strömpilen that almost stops outside our door :)
Now I've eaten some chilli con carne and I'm full! But I still have sweets in my fridge, yey :)
Det är dags för fredagsmyyyys....
I feel much better today. Maybe because its friday?
I payed some bills this morning, it was kind of fun this time because my phonebill haven't been this small in ages. 185:-!! The curlthingie that I bought at The Body Shop works good. I've only used it one time but I can still feel that it enhances my curls and my hair smells so nice :)
Today we finally got some money again. I think the corridor is going to take a trip to Strömpilen later today. Systemet (as every friday?) and Maxi! But I think I will visit Hemtex as well, I need some new bedding, I like mine but to only have one set gets abit boring... I have a black bottom sheet so what do you think:Purple or red?
Its been quite a productive day anyway
. First I translated my personal letter from Swedish into English. I booked a place for exhibiting. I answered some emails. And I've read quite alot. I think I will I read some more before dinner and then tonight I'm going to write some.
And what a day! Gold to Marcus Hellner and bronze to Emil Jönsson. Go Sweden :D
Johan Olsson and Marcus Hellner in a Brothers add ;)
... has been slow. The things I've been doing so far is basically to borrow books from the library, read, make phonecalls, apply for jobs and sit infront of the computer trying to write.
Today my headache is to annoying. Crap, I want to feel usefull and do something today but this and a not so lekker feeling is making it hard to concentrate, eish...
This weekend is empty so far but for a corridor/birthday party on saturday and probably a fika with Ivan.
Yeah, thats my week...
Before lunch I managed to send some applications for jobs. Finding a job in the museumbusiness is tricky but I'll try. I found some interesting websites aswell that can be to my aid. Now I think I'm going to read some, just to get ready for the essay.
I have a strange headache. Or, its really not an ache, its just irritating. Its like the skull pains. Haha, that sounds very dramatic :p Anyway, its been going on for a couple of days. Maybe its because I'm working infront of the computer so much? Hmm...
I don't really have one bag that I use all the time. It all depends where I'm going and what I'm doing. But what I usually carry with me and that I keep taking from one bag to the next are:
- My wallet
- My cellphone
- Some Lypsyl
- Handlotion (my mom thinks I'm crazy:p)
- My Ipod
- My calender
- Atleast one pen or pencil
- A little "first aid kit" with tampons, some painkillers, a pompom and bandaid.
"We will still remember all the times we spent together"
Olle is my younger brother, he turns 22 this year. He lives in Örebro with Bella and their cute son Noel. Olle studies drumming and wants to be a drumteacher someday. He is amazing at music and singing, eventhought he is to stubborn to admit it. Olle is perfect with children and I have no doubt in my mind that he is a wonderful dad and will be a perfect teacher someday. Since my brother and I are quite close in age we played when we were younger. As children to a track and fields teacher, running in our nice black shorts was a favourite ;) We have never really fought. Of course we've been through our teen years but I can't recall one time that we didn't have fun together. Olle is the best at imitating people and I never laugh as much as I do when I'm with him.
My sister is 6 years younger then me and her name is Nelly. She will turn 18 this year and is the only one out of the three of us that still lives at home. She is at the moment still in high school and she gives you chills whatever she is singing. Nelly is very smart and graduated with the highest score possible and I have no doubt she will make it in this world. Since Nelly is a bit younger than me and my brother we sometimes used her as a doll when we were younger. And she looked like one too! Sometimes I just look throught the photos of 2 year old Nelly and I just smile. Me and my sister have never fought either and as time goes by she and I are becomming the sisters I wanted to when I was younger. She is always there to listen.
I'm so extremely proud of them and I'm so happy to be their big sister <3
After making some important calls, eating lunch and watching a little too much Glee I took I nice walk in the sun.
It wasn't that cold but still freezing. It was really nice with music in my ears. I almost burst out singing "We belong together" :)
I took I walk down town because I figured I'll use my birthday offer at The Body Shop before it expires. 100:- :D. I bought some curl boost thats for wavy hair and hopefully it will enhanse the curls I do have.
Anyway, it smelled nice so I'll give it a go :p
Eish, to few applicants for Arabic = no course :(
I slept 10 hours this night and I needed it. This weekend has been nice and relaxed. Lots of fika, movies and girltalk with lovely EVe, pizza in the corridor and more fika. Tomorrow its monday and time to start writing and reading.
Its amazing though how my spring that was so free suddenly is all booked. I love it. In March, if I'm lucky I have something to do every weekend :)
No, I don't really feel like writing anything so this will do for now...
Finally Friday. A good friday... Its sunny outside, I just earned my first 7,5 hp in Museology D and now I'm listening to music. As many of you know, me and technology does not
work. Lets just say that I'm glad that my dad is good at computers cause he have saved me alot of times. This time however I actually managed by myself and for the first time in ages I have an internet that works almost as smooth as I want it to. That also means that I can watch YouTube and FastPassTv. (You must go to FastPassTv
by the way... I mean, free movies and TV - shows online!)
Anyway, this afternoon I've been watching the first 2 episodes of Glee. Yes, I'm a nerd but I love it! Sometimes I wish that my life could be like a musical. Or that atleast I could sing and I could join a club like that ;) I must take up dancing again!!!What would be the soundtrack of your life??!
I live in a room that is not that big. This morning I was doing my washing. I usually take my whole washingbasket to the laundryroom which is literally one metre from my door, just across the hall. I wash my clothes and when I'm about to unload and hang the last bash I notice that one of my socks are missing. How on earth could that happen?!?!
I've searched the whole room, I've scanned the laundryroom...Typical, I don't have many socks to begin with :/
Just a thought on this lovely thursday evening :p
The days go by. Yesterday was a bad day for me but I have friends that cheer me up <3 I got to do some studying and I took a walk to the library to get some new books. Today it feels much better and I'm sitting here writing some things for the seminar tomorrow.
After that its weekend and I do look forward to that...
My favourite jeans from Levi's, a knitted grey sweater and a pink/purple shirt...
It is cold today, so cold that on my way to school this morning I looked like this:
Like a lekka
Naa, no sad faces because of what I don't have...
I'm happy for what I do have and everyone that I love deserves an extra hug today! I try saying quite often to my friends and family how much they mean to me and how much I appriciate them... And today I'll say it again...A heart to you, near or far, where ever you are....
"Everyone believes, from emptiness to everything"
I believe in kindness and respect
I believe in being crazy
I believe in crying and getting back on your feet
I believe in happiness and love
I believe in trying your hardest and dreaming
I believe in understanding and knowledge
I believe that your choices takes you on amazing journey's
I believe in making the best out of every situation
24 years of my life has past. I've been through things on my life that could have made me believe in God, in Allah, in Nirvana, in Buddha... But I have never started to think that there is something greater than us that determines our lives. It seems too unlikely for me and at the same time, why should I believe in something that doesn't keep the world as peaceful as it could be?
I'm tired but I don't want to sleep. Tomorrow is going to be a waste because I haven't got my book that I have to read for friday yet and I don't know what to do... I guess I'll set my alarm and do some work on my exhibition. Maybe look for jobs, apply? Hmm...
What I do know that its Valentines day and I don't have a man to celebrate it with...
Bräntberget, hotdogs and friends. A good day despite the cold...
Now I need some Coca-cola ;)
"I'm not scared of dying, I just don't want to"
Thursday 30 November 2003. I had been sick for almost 2 months. 2 months of trying to figure out what was causing my headache, twitching, sickness and my pain. 2 months of turning me from a happy 16 yearold to a child of 5 who slept in my parents bed.
Me and my mom was at the emergency room, I believe it was for the second time. The medicin that the doctors gave me for borrelia hadn't made any difference. I was taken to a machine that looked like a big gray tire and they x-rayed me. After the examination we went up to the waiting room again. It was a childrens hospital and we sat on small chairs in the middle of dolls, cars and bears. A nurse came and told us that they had forgot to do the x-ray with a liquid that made my bloodvessels bigger and more visible. I went in to the room again and they put a needle into the bend of my arm, it smelt of strong alcohol.
After the x-ray we had to wait. We were put in a small room. Yellow walls. A table and two chairs. A hospital bed. A women came into the room.
"We've found a tumour in the back of your head."
I don't know if I cried. I don't know if I hugged my mother. I do remember that I was walking around in that small room and I believe the only words that came from my mouth was I don't want to die, I don't want to die.....
"God only knows what I'd be without you"
I only got to really know Elin
when I was in South Africa through long emails. When I got back to Sweden we noticed that we weren't really that different, but at the same time there was an ocean of difference between us. I remember our equal interest in Ryan from Nickelback and how we were sitting on Elins parents porch looking at pictures. We've been through alot of things together, we've been living together, we've been laughing and crying, cursing and encouraging.
There is almost nothing that we can't speak of or share in some way ;) She knows what I need and I know her. I know that no matter what she will make it through cause she is so mentally strong. Now she is a mommy to beautiful little Johanna.
I can't wait to be apart of this next chapter. Let's turn the page
I'm one of the fortunate ones to have alot of friends that make my life worth while, who makes me laugh and who inspires me. Who really makes me feel happy. Mickan, Linnéa, Yennipher, Jessica, Emelie, Jennie, Evelina, Emma, Mélanie
, I don't know what I'd be without you...
While the rest of Sweden seem to be struggling with snow and wind this is what I woke up to:There is no way I'm going to be sitting inside the whole day today!
And if someone knows someone or feel an urge to clean my window of that bird poo they are more than welcome to do it. I'm too scared of hights :p
Its nice to let everything go sometimes. Just came home after spending the evening at Ivan's. I beat him at bowling on Wii! I think I need to play Wii more often, thats good for the strenght and motorics in my right hand :)
When I got home I found this in my mailbox:
8 discountoffers and money to buy shoes, makeup and clothes for. I wish I had more money to spend so I could use them all ;)
Check this out, I can just get stuck here
Ehh, I'm bored!! I'm lying here in my bed, listening to cheezy R'nB on my "Fina killar med sammetsröst" and thinking too much, too fast. I feel calm and happy, happy in a way that only comes from this feeling. I can't help it but no matter what it fills me with joy.
Naa, now I think I'm going to go to the kitchen. I bought some fika for later...
Work on my exhibition
Work some more
Visit Ivan and play Mario Cart :)
Sleep and dream sweet dreams
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return"
Love is essential.
A couple of weeks ago we watched "Vetenskapens Värld" in the corridor. They did an experiment about human feelings and among them love. It turned out that the monkeys chose to go to the artificial mommy that provided comfort rather then the one who gave them food. They needed that closeness to function and to grow.
Love is feeling that comfort whatever gives you that feeling. It can be a person, an animal, a thing, a place or a thought. When it comes to loving a person I have been thinking alot about what it really means. But its hard to put your finger on it. So far I've concluded that if I lost someone that I love I wouldn't know how I would react. Its an unthinkable thought and for some reason, may it be that its quiet sad, I think that is just what love is about. The feeling that a person, a thing, an animal, a place or a thought is so much a part of your being that without it life would feel blank.
Love is essential.
We're never going to survive unless we are a little crazy ;)
Breakfast: Lady Grey Tea, orange juice, three sandwiches with cheese and raspberryjam.
Lunch: A mix that I made with creamcheese, salsa, leek, zucchini, muschroom and chicken with some rice.
For dinner i will have: Spaghetti Bolognaise.
"No matter what they do"
My mommy's name is Katarina. She is 51 years old but she looks much younger. She is a medical secratary but during my years of growing up she worked at the post office. My mom almost always falls asleep in the sofa when we are watching TV. She likes training, reading, going for walks, skiing (both down hill and cross country). She likes making the house look nice with flowers and curtains and what not.
My daddy's name is Peter. He is 55, soon to be 56. Me and my dad is so much alike, both personality and appearence. He always comes with a bad joke,a so called "pappaskämt", but you can't help yourself from laughing. He loves sports and during the Olympics our TV is always on. To be honest, I don't really know what he is doing at his work, he is almost like Chandler. I know he works with economics at a fancy office.
My parents have been married for almost 25 years. I appriciate the way they always will look out for me, no matter how old I get and they will always be there with love and support. When we were growing up, we always had alot of things going on but they always tried to make a point of us eating supper together and talking about our days. Today we sit for ages after dinner talking about politics, world events, discussing whatever comes up. I love that.
Monday again after a hectic weekend. Shopping with Eve, partying in the corridor, cleaning the corridor, making a cake watching a movie. And to top it all off, I feel great, tired yes, but great. Its nice to be wanted ;)
Had one of my talks with Lekgetho and he understands me because as it turns out, he feels and think the same as me in this and I'm happy to still have him in my life... Everything in life makes a different, in one way or the other and I can't escape the fact that this experience has made me so much stronger then I was before.
There is one thing that is missing though and that is that I want to go down to Nynäs and meet the new little family now! <3 I hope the weeks until I go visit will go fast!!
I spent the day today in school. I might aswell start when I have time... And you feel much better when you get home, almost like you deserve to take the evening off... I ended up watching Splice
with the guys in the corridor. Well, weird movie I must say...
I was just looking through some picture from SA 05/06... Jho, I look like a little child! But it brings back memories...
"All the times we had together"
I think I'm going to describe my first real romantic crush. I didn't have a "proper" boyfriend until I was 20. But this boy made my heart beat a little more and who made me feel warm inside.
It was during my last three years of compulsory school. We were in the same class and he was my best boy friend. I was too scared to say that I wanted to be more then friends and in the end thats all we ended up being. We went to prom together and I felt comfortable around him. When highschool started we ended up at different schools. Today we don't talk anymore, we are completely different people then before.
I still wish that I had abit more guts when I was 14...
In our laundry room I found a notification that we had to remove stuff from there before February 9 or they would be thrown away. Apparently they found
- personal items
Clothes!?!? Whats up with that? Of course you leave you clothes there as you do your washing! Were else would they be? Uh ah ah :)
I think the time it right to do this, to be able to focus on something else than studying for awhile :)
My name is Elin. I recently turned 24 years old,born in the year of the rabbit according to the Chinese. I grew up with my parents and my two younger siblings in Sorunda. Actually, my first three years I spent in Östebergahöjden and later we moved to a yellow house with a big garden in Sorunda. At the age of 6 we moved to Sunnerby to be closer to school and kindergarden and I think also because we needed a bigger house since my sister was born just weeks after we moved. My parents and my younger sister still lives in that house which happens to be yellow aswell.
I loved school and I found it easy to learn new things. In highschool I applied for the Dance program but in the end I studied Social Science. After my second year in highschool I went as an exchangestudent to South Africa. South Africa was not really my first choice but now, almost 5 years later I'm so glad I went to Cape Town. Maybe it didn't seem to matter then but I realize now that to go to SA instead of the US was right for me. I've also been back there for internship. When I came back I had to start over again in a new Social Science class but it was there that I met the friends that means the most to me.
After graduation I moved to Umeå to become a museologist. At the time I was interested in history but didn't want to become a teacher so working in a museum sounded perfect to me. Now my ambitions and interests have changed but more of that later. This summer I will have my one year mastersdegree in Museology which includes one year Social Anthropology studies. Here in Umeå I live in a student corridor and it suits me quite perfect since I'm a very social person. However, I'm really looking forward to find my own place, no matter where in the world and start my new life, hopefully working in a museum.
I love travelling and seeing new things, something that I want to do more as I grow older. I very rarely get angry and I would never say that I hate someone. I try to see myself as positive person and I always meet the world with a smile no matter how I might feel inside. At the same time, I talk alot about things that bothers me because for me its some kind of therapy. I want to do so many things but I don't have the time to do them all. One thing that I hope to develop is a sense of sticking up for myself and not be frightened to mount my own ideas and thoughts about things.
However, I really love my life at the moment and there is nothing that can stop my dreams.
Its going to be hard to learn!! You can write the letters in five different ways... But I'm so psyched to do this :)
These last couple of days has been filled with a hungover, reading until my head is sore, eating and sleeping. I just don't have any inspiration to write. But tomorrow we have the seminar that all the reading is for and after that I'm going to town to just relax. Maybe drink some tea? I know atleast two of my plans. One includes going to Arbetsförmedlingen, out and about :)