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I think I have realized something, or actually I did a while ago. I'm not very academic and I would never end up doing research after my studies. I do envy the ones that are able to sit down and just write, erase, write again and finally hand in something that is worth an A. But I'm not like that. I sit down and I write. I take stuff away, maybe I add something but never do I erase the whole thing. Maybe if I did I would reach that A that everyone wants? But I'm sorry to say that I don't know how. And it is in moments like these that I would give my left arm to be able to do that. To sit for hours just trying to find something to write. Because I guess that would make me more calm. Here I am, already finished with my exam waiting to hear my mother and father thoughts. It kills me inside that I don't feel that I have to work, I'm already done. Or atleast as done as I can be... I know that this is a small problem and I'm glad I don't have the opposite one. But eish, this is killing me sometimes! I'm still very proud of my self. Three years at uni, I haven't failed one exam and I still manage to get good marks, if not the best ones.

So maybe I should just settle with the fact that as far as I know when I'm done with my studies, my career is out there somewhere, not in academics?