A moment
"I'm not scared of dying, I just don't want to"
Thursday 30 November 2003. I had been sick for almost 2 months. 2 months of trying to figure out what was causing my headache, twitching, sickness and my pain. 2 months of turning me from a happy 16 yearold to a child of 5 who slept in my parents bed.
Me and my mom was at the emergency room, I believe it was for the second time. The medicin that the doctors gave me for borrelia hadn't made any difference. I was taken to a machine that looked like a big gray tire and they x-rayed me. After the examination we went up to the waiting room again. It was a childrens hospital and we sat on small chairs in the middle of dolls, cars and bears. A nurse came and told us that they had forgot to do the x-ray with a liquid that made my bloodvessels bigger and more visible. I went in to the room again and they put a needle into the bend of my arm, it smelt of strong alcohol.
After the x-ray we had to wait. We were put in a small room. Yellow walls. A table and two chairs. A hospital bed. A women came into the room.
"We've found a tumour in the back of your head."
I don't know if I cried. I don't know if I hugged my mother. I do remember that I was walking around in that small room and I believe the only words that came from my mouth was I don't want to die, I don't want to die.....
Thursday 30 November 2003. I had been sick for almost 2 months. 2 months of trying to figure out what was causing my headache, twitching, sickness and my pain. 2 months of turning me from a happy 16 yearold to a child of 5 who slept in my parents bed.
Me and my mom was at the emergency room, I believe it was for the second time. The medicin that the doctors gave me for borrelia hadn't made any difference. I was taken to a machine that looked like a big gray tire and they x-rayed me. After the examination we went up to the waiting room again. It was a childrens hospital and we sat on small chairs in the middle of dolls, cars and bears. A nurse came and told us that they had forgot to do the x-ray with a liquid that made my bloodvessels bigger and more visible. I went in to the room again and they put a needle into the bend of my arm, it smelt of strong alcohol.
After the x-ray we had to wait. We were put in a small room. Yellow walls. A table and two chairs. A hospital bed. A women came into the room.
"We've found a tumour in the back of your head."
I don't know if I cried. I don't know if I hugged my mother. I do remember that I was walking around in that small room and I believe the only words that came from my mouth was I don't want to die, I don't want to die.....